It’s been on my mind a while, how out ward looking I’ve been.
I’ve been so focused, and so dragged into this world, and what the world portrays as an attractive person, I have forgotten what the contents of my heart, and my soul might look like.
A couple of weeks ago, I came across a quote on social media that said something of the lines of, if people could see your heart and soul right now, would you want them to see it?
Over the past few days, it’s been pondering on my mind. IF, people could see my heart and soul. What would they see? What would they see inside of me? The more I thought about it the more I realized, yes it looked unattractive.
Living with ongoing illness, has somehow, changed me. The last couple of years, has caused me to become bitter, to become angry and to become resentful. My heart, and my soul even my mind must look pretty broken, and pretty chewed up on these negative thoughts.
It’s made me realize, that I need to make some ‘life’ changing decisions, and not decisions in a medical sense but in a ‘soul’ sense.
I have been imagining what people must think of me, if they saw on an x ray, my emotions, my negativity, and my anger. AND it made me think – WHAT must JESUS think!!!
I know, in these situations, it’s easy to get dragged down with negativity, but I feel the spirit, wants change. Not in just me but in others. He wants us to examine ourselves, He wants us, to forgive, forget, and to look to Him. He wants us to pray more, and focus on what we have rather than the materialistic things that we don’t have.
A couple of verses have come to mind, that we can focus on this week regarding this matter.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Psalm 139 23
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.